today.

midnight peanut butter

in the oven

toasted bread

organic soy milk

but no one knows

it took two 

hours too long.

think about the man

and how he stood

using his feet

to be brave

in front of machines

made by logic

of a mindless yes

they said

you cannot

one against 

breaking waves

and hearts on

the ground cradling

dying words

firm skinned

fear of height

atop the city

of downward eyes.

wash the dishes

take out the trash

wipe the counter

scare the mice

turn off the light.

why do you

why do you speak as if you had no soul,

as if you have never stubbed your toe,

then swore and cursed at the bloody hole

why do you speak as if you had no past,

as if you never went too too fast,

then burnt your mouth and lost your taste

why do you speak as if you had no mind,

as if you were built to ask these things,

then why and what and how, i don't understand

why do you speak as if you had no mouth,

as if you were put on mute,

then gave up on God

why do you speak to as if you were not me,

and even when you are,

you still can't see

the why and what and how

it all came to be.

season of mourning doves.

on vacation 

far away

from the people

who loved your face

dying on this island

fearing assassin suns

near the shallow end

the water blue and odd:

mornings are warm

nights are warmer

but you have never been

so cold and lone.

why, 

ships never came 

to rescue you, 

Helen of nowhere

frozen, wondering

if he were born

or has yet died,

Paris of never.

goodbye from last year.

on your goodbye

i'd pull you in,

tell you i love you

and only you

and only you.

happiness

on your lips,

on my lips

smiling fools

were in fashion

this time

last year.

only and ever

and never

forever

i do.

in june

that never came

i fell asleep

at that stop

and i was robbed

(the fault was mine)

i took the thief

and made him do it.

your last walk

is my goodbye

i have nothing

in my mouth.

only happiness

belonged to you

belonged to me

in happy times

rain on nights

art and theater

like an actor

i fell and sobbed.

bear loves honey

but eats man too

love to love love

hate just as sweet.

you understand.

the way suns 

rise and fall

incessantly.

goodbye

from last year:

always yours,

with love.