do. not.

to do

i told myself not

to do

i said it

more than once

more than

enough i thought

not.

no so and such

may apply

in this case.

i am

outside.

then

as all things

expire,

so my words

and promise sank

and stoned

to death,

and what i believed

not possible

happened.

as all things

are possible.

because i said

never,

and believed to

not believe

that certainty is not mine,

this

(i thought

a mere chance)

was probable.

so probable.

i stood strong

as a small shape,

and now heavily 

float on 

in the wrong

direction,

so

so very

very

so and such.