plans.

what i want to ask is

when you plan your life
do you plan the last day of your life

do you write down in that little precious notebook
of ideas
what color your bed sheets will be
when you cough out your last
and
who will be there to witness your exit
in that comfort planned?

will it be
a saturday
conveniently so
so they could read your name in church
the very next day
so people can hear their own memories of you
slide by for a few moments
so you can watch
in your soulful form
who are the ones who cry for you?

and if you had children
what will they say
in front of your grave

or will they be there at all
since they never forgot the date
their mother ran away
with another man

that bit
among others
you had not planned.