easily

persuaded to go that way to do that thing to drink that cup 

you nudge me, yes, sweet,

once, 

another once, and another, another, another once

and i 

think

and stop and go and stop and think and

and you

here

smile at me looking at my hands

the spaces on my face

the spaces in my mind 

you guess

you presume

and i don't know

but you ask

and i

shake my head

and nod it no 

diagonally off

and you give

me

an okay

then i try to 

throw it all away

spill 

my mind.