off.

i watched your breath, how it gave life, and twirled round and round and round, up and left, right and back, my nose, my mouth, on my tongue and inside my head somewhere, twirling because that's what life does.

i saw your discomfort and smiled sourly because my eyes didn't agree. all those tears needed to go somewhere. i wondered if i can help make you cry if i did so first, but you didn't look at my eyes. then i balanced them for a second on the thin ledges because i didn't want to raise my hand. 

i wish i could cry for you all my life.

i turned off the lights.

then i jumped off.