hands on

a man with pretty hands

and light colored hair

frowns a sad frown

soft like childhood

fairy dust

his hands on

a soft woman

a lady

nice all right

soft like a feather

on his cheek

soft like lips

on his closed eyes

soft like 

soft like

his hands on

soft like skin

slut turned nun

brita filtered

water boiled

happiness fired

swallowing wind

his hands on

his closed eyes

will not open

till she cries hard

wolf wolf!

and he sees

a running beast

and dies for her

only truth

hardly hardly

a rare sight

his hands on

being born

born again

from a virgin's

unsullied mouth

now opened

from heaven

down to hell

to the shouting

of the belle

his hands on

time

laid out

passed out

in pain

in passing

time in

time out

his hands on

she make him

oh does she 

does she

she

make happy

him happy 

hands on

hands on.

to be.

and after now

i cannot unsay

i want to be your favorite person.

i want to be your favorite friend.

i want to be your favorite flavor.

i want to be to be to be.

i want to be your favorite daughter.

i want to be your favorite mother.

i want to be your favorite lover.

i want to be your woman-girl.

i want to be yours

is that too sweet?

is that cloying

as it clings

to the roof of your mouth

like peanut butter?

can you breathe

or have you cotton balls

stuck inside your narrow throat?

well, too late

i said it now

i said it all

unabridged

bluntly like a four-year-old

caught with candies

in her paws

in her pockets

on her lips:

i want to be to be to be

your favorite forever

forever forever.

to a magician.

truth be told

i want to sleep with you--

but that is all:

sleep--and that is all.

no private parts:

we will be open

with nothing between us

nothing to hide

under below 

or from each other:

we will be

the cotton sheets:

sandwich of patience

always savored

never consumed.

and all i wish

is to sleep with you:

in sleep i trust 

you will make me 

disappear.

scenes.

1.

oh darling

brother said

do not go alone into the water 

you do not know how to float

you do not know how to run 

or how to live there.

2.

i jumped before he returned

i tried to walk in

like walking into home

like normal

in the water where the creature lives

where the grass is in tangles and gold

where the grass tangos 

and holds me close.

3. 

do not be so quick

you cannot 

cannot leave me here

do not

do not leave me here.

4.

when i was 6

i learned how to swim

in a pool so shallow

with water too clear

too medicated and too blue

when one day i tried to swim

and the day was too cold

and the water was too cold

and my body was too cold

too medicated and too blue.

5.

darling darling

i told you so

i told you do not 

do not go there

you do not know 

how to live there

do not

do not leave me here.

6.

mama tried to give me ginger soup

give me some warmth and breath

but my lips were too blue

i already too cold

then mama cried some ginger tears

all hot and nice

like sugar and spice

like the stuff good girls are made of

stuff i never had.

7. 

it's lonely here on sunny days

the waters are warm 

natural and nice

makes me wonder 

if i had waited

if you would float

beside my body

darling now.