conscious.

conscious 

of the fact that

i have all this

and more.

i know you are

conscious

but i

am more

conscious.

conscious

of this extra skin

this extra flesh

these extra extra

extra pounds

or kilos

or ounces

or wafer lights.

conscious

of this extra 

extra extra

top of the morning

to you

to you

news of extra

extra extra.

conscious

of this extra

extra extra

all the love

all the money

all the water

a third world

hopes for 

extra extra

all in my hand.

conscious 

of this extra

extra extra

guilty guilt

all the privilege

and throwaway

pennies and wishes

on the floor

unwanted

unseen.

extra

conscious

skin

pound

money water

love and guilt

forgotten wishes

on the floor,

melted together

under my nose

like a rain puddle

dead leaves and dust.