wishes

i wish you were in the water
(close) behind me today,
to hold, for warmth,
to brave me against the waves
(to keep, forever).
i wish my heart i could fully give away
to you, to you i said,
but
the day was too heavy,
and the air too light,
and though i'd tried plenty,
the words did not take flight...
do you know?
if you nod,
it would tell my heart "go..."
if not,
it would surely stop
(then after a while,
i'd have to mop
the broken bits
into a corner
of my wits )
no idea, no answer
it's all hit and miss...
would you tell me
plainly
to ease this back and forth?
or does it lie secretly,
(puppy) love,
all in these games
of hide and seek
and peek-a-boo?
for now,
all is only "no,"
because your love
(i think...i know)
is also currently
trapped somewhere
in the air,
near.